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articles:
No Points of Reference
Have you found at times that a kind of depression can creep up on you and be suddenly ruling your day before you get even a whiff of it? It seems to sit in our bones until some small trigger lets it out. Some times we do not even know what it is that started off the whole chain reaction. Other times is it possible to see what you think was the cause but still it does not seem possible to stop the flow and, as the feeling overwhelms you and stops reason - it seems all but impossible to overcome in the moment. I've read lots of books about positive thinking - I share it with my clients many times as I guide them through the challenges of making change in their lives. I use it as one of the best tools available when wanting to keep their energy moving towards the positive outcome they have chosen as their goal. I know the theory backwards and have just recently read Deepak Chopra's book Quantum Healing that explores the role of the quantum field in the process of manifestation of thought to reality - a fascinating read if the quantum field is of interest to you. I am a complete believer that the mind controls the reality and what we think we are. I also know that many of you who are reading this musing believe this to be a fact too.
And yet, I also know that many of us are still prone to the vagaries of our mind and feel "off" many times, often for no specific reason. I wonder if this is simply part of the process of our own personal evolution. In the infancy of our growth as aware human beings we deal with the tangible hassles of our lives. Whether they be a tortured past that we have carried round on our heart for what feels a lifetime or a recent disappointment that has cut deep. It could be a mixture of seemingly small insignificant experiences that have coalesced into a white elephant sitting in the middle of our living room table that we happen to have just noticed. These are the "real" events that challenge us to be looked at and dealt with.
When I say dealt with I do not mean lightly. To many people these past events can take years or even a lifetime to surpass and it can be a gruelling battle with their own person demons. To others it may take less time but by no means is it a less arduous task. In each individual way we all have our process of "growing up" and deal with it in the way we see best. However there comes a time when the visible pains have been, or on certainly on the way, to being exorcised from our lives and we begin to look to a brighter, lighter future. Purpose seems to beckon in our lives and we become filled with hope and a future. Often it has taken much time and faith to move ourselves to where we feel we can now launch a new era in our lives, free from the old patterns of two steps forward and one back. At this point I am reminded of something I read recently in a book by Martha Beck called Finding Your Own North Star in which she reminds readers that although you may have looked at your past and dealt with your emotional wounds and at that point become infused with an enthusiasm for life, don't forget that the hero's saga is still to come. We may (or may not) know our dreams but tests will still be visited upon us to strengthen us for the real homecoming. Hercules had twelve of these such tests and we too have our own version even when we feel we are on the path towards our goals and dreams.
And this, I think, is where this nameless depression comes to play. It is just another test of resolve along the way but a far greater one in that it is not something tangible that can be looked at, dealt with or/and released. It begs the question - will this cloud stop you? Will it make you question all that has progressed or will you keep the faith and trust that this too shall pass and, paradoxically, you may not even know what it was that created it or dissipated it. I know that as we grow as souls within this human experience our energetic bodies move and change too. I think that the angelic realm has a specific hand in this especially when we invite their help. Often we expect a physical manifestation of help (and sometimes like my recent Computer Angel who managed to let me open my computer to save my hard disc before the whole thing failed!) it is a very physical help. But I also believe that help is often given to us on the non-physical, energetic realm and whilst this changing of our energetic patterns is occurring we often feel out of sorts.
I classify my "out of sorts" as a fog. I can't see what is happening or analyse the whys and wherefor's. I feel lost and confused and yet deep within I know that something good can come of this feeling. Often very sharp, concise insights do arise, seemingly out of nowhere and I am supported even if outwardly it may not seem like it. I see that even though I may have labelled the feeling 'depression' it is, in actuality, not. It is a lost feeling in which I lose the bearings of where I am and who I am but this is necessary if you think about it. In times of change we often try to hold onto what we know and what feels safe. Even if we are one of the more intrepid folks who will go with the flow it can be scary and it is possible that we will want to at least control the level of flow. By being in the fog we loose that control for how can we try to steer the boat if we cannot see the shore? We are being asked to let go totally and move with this wave of change that is sweeping the world and manifesting in all manner of events. If you, like me, are one of those who like to have at least a modicum of control it is possible that we are being blinded to ourselves so that we have to move with it. Know; at this moment that this is what is necessary for we too need to move and change and this is a way for it to happen.
I can normally see or have a sense of my personal future. This year I lost that sense and it feels very odd. I know that part of this was to do with recent events and the feelings of loss and intense sadness that ensued. It also reminded me very strongly to always be complete with everyone at all times. But in being able to stand back and look at everything I also see that this message, in its totality, is "be present". There is no way that we can second-guess our futures anymore. We can put in the self-effort that is required but only if we do it in the present moment. The feeling of depression comes when we try to be in the future and cannot find the door. It gives a feeling of "is that all there is? Rather than "wow look at what we have right now". Change your attitude I was told recently and I wondered exactly what that was referring to. I realised with all that has happened recently that it is my attitude to the present that is being challenged. How do I view the present? What is my attitude to it? Am I in survival or joy? Listening to an astrology reading I had done about 10 years ago I put the tape in where I had obviously left off some ten years before. The first sentence I heard was - "all you have to do is learn that everything you do you need to do to experience joy. Don't do a job for financial need but so you can experience joy. Cultivate an attitude of joy" And where do we experience joy? In the present moment.
If I sit with this feeling of depression and truly contemplate what I
am feeling in the present moment, it is not depression. Not in the clinical
understanding of the word. It is a time of no points of reference, which
my limited mind can only label depression. Yes, beneath the feeling is
a sadness, which could be the "depressed" emotion which gives
cause to depression, but in truth, it is on a different level to this.
It is part of the change of consciousness as a whole as we move towards
our futures whatever they may hold. It is part of what is necessary to
get us to where we need to be. May we move with freedom, accepting and
welcoming the changes that challenge us, that fill us with joy and guide
us home.
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